It’s not a white whale, it’s a Holy Grail. The white whale is something that occupies your every waking moment and you wish to eliminate so you can get on with your life.

Having an apartment, and a job at the same time.

I’m 40. I’ve almost achieved it.

One game I do not even know the title of. My brother used to play it when I was 6 years old. I remember the game being monochrome, not sure about the crt itself. But it was a kind of XCOM if I’d have to describe it, about some crew that lands on an underwater planet. It’s still my white whale coz I still have not found even the name . I tried chatgpting suggestions recently to no avail.

Hi-Res scans of paintings and photographs. Like starry night from van gogh:

https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/e/ea/Van_Gogh_-_Starry_Night_-_Google_Art_Project.jpg

Would love a library of photos from Feininger or Salgado, paintings etc.

I would love a private tracker for art digitalizations.

Kind of shameful but there is this one porn movie I used to have on a CDR that got lost between apartments. It’s stupid cause it’s #17 of a 20+ series and you can find #16 and #18 in like 2 minutes, but this one has disappeared from the face of the internet. The studio stopped listing it some time ago then they were bought out and the new owners never listed that one. Believe it or not I literally sent an email to the male star of the movie, but he never responded. There goes my holy grail. It must have gone out of stock and maybe the masters got lost or something. I know one rip was made at some point cause I found a filename in a listing, but it is long lost. Farewell lost porn 🙋‍♂️ farewell…

The entire series of Inside the Actors Studio.

A complete collection of The Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson, including the first few years that nobody thought to record. The LLS Archive channel on YouTube is the most comprehensive source available but there’s still huge gaps of missing episodes. Rumor has it there’s one guy out there who recorded every episode on VHS but is refusing to digitize them.

Insomniac with Dave Atell. I loved that show on Comedy Central, but it was never put on dvd that I could find. I’ve never found a good torrent of it either.

Damn, I miss that show.

A remix version of Dragostea Din Tei, aka the Numa Numa, where the artist faded in part of the song a couple of times in a really interesting manner. I found it on limewire back in the mid 2000s and lost it in a reformat. Haven’t found it since.

Fun School 6: Futureland. Its a shitty edutainment game from the 90s that I played non-stop for like a year, that I want to get my hands on for nostalgia purposes. As far as I can tell its not available (online or physical media) anywhere. I finally found a copy for sale a few years ago, but it turned out to be a mislabelled copy of fun school 6: fairyland.

I will keep searching, eventually a copy will show up somewhere!

A good quality version of the “VR.5” tv series from 1995. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/VR.5

It’s a TV show about virtual reality and has peak 90’s aesthetic. They shot the scenes in "virtual reality"on black and white film and colorized them manually afterwards to create a very distinct and vibrant look. That must’ve been so much hard work.

Sadly, there is only a 240p VHS rip with extremely terrible quality out there. I’ve always wanted to watch the whole thing, but it’s too degraded to enjoy like this.

I recently had the pleasure to slay it actually. It was the kinda like Twilight Zone but Horror ‘Night Gallery’ from 1996. It did exist, but the torrent that was circulating was messed up beyond belief. Episodes cut off at 20 minutes etc. Some dude on a private tracker ripped the whole thing anew for me.

I actually went and bought my white whale and ripped it myself eventually. It’s a silly movie called DEBS but every version I could find had an error in the final scene. So I ripped it from DVD, if only now I could figure out how to self host it.

On a related note, the first white whale I ever had is how I got into piracy, it was a kids show called ik mik loreland that we got to see in school as to learn spelling. They never showed us the entire series, and I had been obsessed with it for years untill on the news they talked about birate-pay. Eventually found a tracker on tickass-korrents. It took me 6 months to complete from what I assume was one seeder who didn’t use a PC ever. Recently register it myself and am proud to say it now has 4 dedicated seeders.

• A rip of this specific limited edition CD, that contains a few bonus tracks that can’t be found anywhere else in CD quality.

• A PDF of the short-lived Japanese edition of GURPS 4th Edition (specifically Characters and Magic). The books are very hard to find, and usually cost $300-500 when sold online. It seems like no scans were ever made.

A cracked version of Hatch. It’s embroidery software that my GF has wanted to use for her hobby / tiny side hustle but a license costs literally hundreds of dollars.